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Tuesday Oct 18, 2011
Tuesday Oct 18, 2011
October 18, 2011
Women who bully other women may not realize that, while women are bullying other women, men are getting the better of all women without even trying.
It seems to me that, aside from women who are participating in what’s going on because they are knowingly, willingly corrupted, and aside from women who are too young to have developed realistically high expectations for their own lives, there are women who have and perhaps have always had low expectations for their own lives and who bully other women in order to gain power within the parameters of what’s been inappropriately defined for them as being all they can or should aspire to have.
I took this recording yesterday morning, in the female dorm of the Salvation Army Harbor Lights shelter in Boston. I can’t help the name of the place.
It’s true that I had started saying some cruel things back, the night before, and also that morning. In the morning, after I’d said something back to the coughing, one of the women who’d been coughing went and told staff that I was being rude to them. You can hear what happened next.
Near the end of the recording, when the shelter staffperson was still in the room, you can hear one of the women coughing on purpose. I mention it in the recording, too, “Did you hear that?”
The zipping sound is me putting things into my backpack, getting ready to go.
When I went out into the hallway, the staffperson stood in the hallway with her hand on the phone, apparently trying to threaten me that she was going to call the police if I didn’t just leave.
The computer here is really slow, and I haven't been able to upload the recording yet. I also haven't been able to delete my first attempt to do that. I'm also being bullied by other women on either side of me at the computer lab here. I've had better mornings. @ 9:01 a.m.
I think the recording has been uploaded by now.
Copyright L. Kochman, October 18, 2011 @ 9:05 a.m.
Monday Oct 17, 2011
Monday Oct 17, 2011
October 17, 2011
I am in favor of things that are good for the environment. Like a lot of people who are from Vermont or who lived there for a long time, I have some interest in environmental issues.
I wrote about the environment a few times on Friendster in 2009, before Leonardo DiCaprio showed interest in me that I was aware of. I’m not interested in him. I have the right to talk or write about the environment without being accused of being interested in him.
Copyright L. Kochman, October 17, 2011 @ 11:07 a.m.
Monday Oct 17, 2011
Monday Oct 17, 2011
October 17, 2011
In addition to the 2 police officers on bicycles that rode in front of me before I made this recording; the minute I walked out of the shelter I was staying in yesterday morning, on October 16, 2011, I crossed the street and sat in the park across from the shelter and a police car drove slowly past, on the street between the shelter and the park. I was sitting on the bench closest to the entrance of the park.
Copyright L. Kochman, October 17, 2011 @ 10:54 a.m.
Monday Oct 17, 2011
Monday Oct 17, 2011
Sunday Oct 16, 2011
Sunday Oct 16, 2011
Copyright L. Kochman, October 16, 2011 @ 4:52 p.m.
For some reason, the earphones that I'm using immediately started playing music after each time that I tried to listen to these recordings on this computer, and I don't know how to shut it off, and neither did the person running the computer lab.
If there's music in the background of these recordings, I didn't put it there.
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October 17, 2011
I wrote all of the above yesterday.
Today, I put the date that I had left the messages for the NYT in the title of this post and the last one. I had said the date into the recording of the messages when I first created them and that's audible in the recordings, but I thought it would be good to note in the titles what the date was when I left the messages as voicemails. It's easy to miss something that goes by quickly on a recording.
Copyright L. Kochman, October 17, 2011 @ 10:33 a.m.
Sunday Oct 16, 2011
Sunday Oct 16, 2011
October 16, 2011
I don’t remember which blog it was that I was writing earlier in the day on October 11, 2011, before I left this message and the next one for the New York Times. I do remember that there was a moment when one of the times at which I published something was something like “12:58,” and I didn’t worry about that being interpreted as code.
Then, I had gotten to the end of something else, on another page, hadn’t edited it that much, and the time was something like 1:13 p.m. or 2:13 p.m.. I confess to feeling afraid to publish that time, and to doing other things on the page until it didn’t say whatever that time was anymore, because Zac Efron was (and still is) endorsing child molestation and I didn’t want another crisis like one huge crisis that happened several weeks ago when I published something with the time that it exactly was when I published it.
I can’t spend my day worrying about the times at which I publish things. That was some, but not all, of what drove my anger on the night that I left these messages.
I can't help the number that the recorder gave to this message.
The title of this and the next post reflect the number podcast this is, not the number of messages that I've left for the NYT.
Copyright L. Kochman, October 16, 2011 @ 4:50 p.m./addition on October 17, 2011 @ 10:14 a.m.
Friday Oct 14, 2011
Friday Oct 14, 2011
October 14, 2011
Here’s some of what’s on the Action for Boston Community Development
website. I highlighted the word “innovative.”
I'm assuming I don't need to highlight much else, such as "October 27th,"
"Seaport World Trade Center," "Hoop Dreams," "Boston Celtics Head
Coach Doc Rivers," "Boston Globe Sports Columnist Bob Ryan," "John
Wentzell from the DNC and Garden Neighborhood Charities, the
charitable organization of the TD Garden...."
The website for "ABCD" is horrible, once you really look at it. There's a
lot I could say about it. I'm going to put one more thing after those
first 2 excerpts, from the website, and then one more discussion of what I
found doing searches on something from the website.
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Join Us on October 27th at the Seaport World Trade Center to Launch the ABCD 50th Anniversary Year Gala Celebration and to Honor Our Community Heroes!!
The 37th Annual Community Awards Dinner is a night for all of us to join together to honor those who give so unselfishly of themselves for the betterment of their neighborhoods. For 50 years, ABCD has pursued the mission of upward mobility for hundreds of thousands of Greater Boston residents through innovative, quality programs and services.
Each year, ABCD honors those community leaders whose inspirational deeds help to build a better Boston. These are men and women who volunteer with children and older people, who attend community meetings and provide critical input on important neighborhood issues. These volunteers are the heart and soul of life in Boston's neighborhoods. They make this city work.
Please join us in celebrating our 2011 Community Awards Dinner on October 27th!
For general information, sponsorship opportunities and to purchase tickets, please call Pamela Nedbalek at (617) 348-6238 or email her at pamela.nedbalek@bostonabcd.org.
Hoop Dreams a Success!
Thank you to all of our sponsors, donors and players for supporting us and participating in ABCD's inaugural Hoop Dreams event. A special thank you goes out to our hosts, Boston Celtics Head Coach Doc Rivers, Boston Globe sports columnist Bob Ryan, John Wentzell from the DNC and Garden Neighborhood Charities, the charitable organization of the TD Garden.
The evening was a wonderful success, and we are thrilled to announce that Hoop Dreams will be an annual event!
Approximately $100,000 was raised for ABCD and the Urban College of Boston. It is because of the generosity of friends like you that we at ABCD are able to continue our mission in these difficult economic times. Your donation will help keep Boston's most vulnerable families warm, fed and safely housed-but it will also help them move toward self-sufficiency and a better life.
See you next year!
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ABCD approved for a new BPS Innovation School! ABCD's proposal to the Boston Public Schools to create an "Innovation School" based on the highly successful University High won unanimous approval. Learn more about the school concept and how it will help more youth at risk.
Read More News...
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1. John Wentzell | MIT Sloan Sports Analytics Conference
www.sloansportsconference.com/?p=307Cached
John Wentzell is a twenty-three year veteran of the sports, entertainment and facilities management industry with executive leadership roles spanning arenas, ...
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"TD Banknorth Garden
John Wentzell is a twenty-three year veteran of the sports, entertainment and facilities management industry with executive leadership roles spanning arenas, convention centers and professional sports.
Named President of TD Banknorth Garden in 2005, Wentzell leads and operates the19,600-seat facility, one of North America’s most active, highly regarded and successful venues as well as oversees numerous business aspects of it’s sister company the Boston Bruins and the company’s real estate development interests adjacent to the Garden. The Garden, home to both the NHL’s Boston Bruins and NBA’s Boston Celtics, is owned and operated by Delaware North Companies, one of the largest privately held companies in the United States and a global leader in hospitality and entertainment."
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Copyright, with noted exceptions, L. Kochman, October 14, 2011 @ 4:08 p.m.
Friday Oct 14, 2011
Friday Oct 14, 2011
October 14, 2011
This recording was taken during the last hour that I had the recorder on, the night of October 10-11, 2011. I can only put 30MB of a file online at a time. This section of that recording is about 20 minutes long.
Somewhere in the middle of the night, I pulled the recorder partially out of my pocket and tried to keep the microphone uncovered.
If it sounds as if there are a lot of empty minutes of sound, please remember that it’s happening at night, when people are supposed to be sleeping. For that kind of coughing to be happening every few minutes; what do you think that would be like?
What usually happens is that one person will start coughing, which is the signal to other would-be harassers that it’s time to start being harassing. If there are coughs that seem quieter, in the background, those are people on the other side of the room, encouraging the coughers who are nearest to me.
It goes on all night. There might be times of half an hour or an hour when even the harassers feel that they need some sleep; however, many of them seem to feel that it’s worth it to deprive themselves of sleep just so that they can try to bother me and now, also, other women whom they want to abuse.
This is the kind of thing that I’ve been dealing with, every day, since the first week of December, 2010, after the first few days that I was in the hospital. In addition to patients, there were staff that used to do the coughing thing, even outside of the door of my room at night.
Everyone in the conglomerate already knows what I’ve been going through. Since I’m always being followed, they can’t have missed it. They know that this, and worse, is what the coughing sounds like.
I’m not sure what the woman saying “Oh s---“ is saying that about; that’s near the end of the recording.
Sarcasm Alert: Isn’t it fabulous that having the recorder in my pocket meant it was close to my stomach, so you can hear the gurgling of my stomach at various times? It’s too bad; however, I don’t think it would be a good idea to try to edit sound from the recordings. It’s not as if I never have enough to do, and the goal here is authenticity, no? It’s me, trying to sleep, at night.
The snoring isn’t me; I don’t snore.
Friday Oct 14, 2011
Friday Oct 14, 2011
October 14, 2011
These are the first, few minutes of about 6 hours of a recording that I made at night on October 10, 2011 at the Woods Mullen, or “Intake,” Boston Public Health Commission shelter in Boston. Please keep in mind as you listen to it that the recorder was in my pocket for this section of the recording. What you’re hearing was recorded at a distance of some feet from whoever was coughing, and the fabric of my jeans was covering the microphone.
Please keep in mind also that the women’s dorm at that shelter is one room with bunks in it, and that a staffperson for the shelter is at a desk in front of the bunks at all times. It’s not as if the staff don’t hear and know what’s going on.
I think that, regardless of any eavesdropping law that prohibits making audio recordings of people without their knowledge or consent, if you are in a situation in which you are being abused, you should find a way to let people know what that’s like.
How can anyone prosecute me for making this recording and putting it online without admitting that I have a blog and that he or she heard the recording on that blog? How can anyone who admits that he or she has heard recordings on my blog or has read any of my blogs then go on to continue to deny that the overall situation is happening? How can anyone who has found and read or listened to any of my blogs then continue to lie and say that the coughs don’t mean anything, that they’re just a result of “people being sick,” or “people having allergies,” that the Wet Floor signs and other harassment “have nothing to do with me,” and all of the other lies that have been told to me most of the time when I’ve tried to confront the harassment directly, in person?
Copyright L. Kochman, October 14, 2011 @ 10:47 a.m.